Well, here we are!! We did it!! We snuck down to the lab in Salt Lake on Monday morning April 4th 2016. We asked Jeffs mom to watch kids while we attended a "Health Conference" haha, almost truth!
I was so very nervous! It all just had me on pins and needles! On one hand I'm picturing a beautiful new baby in my arms, and the next I'm panicked thinking what if they don't survive the thaw??? What if only one does? What if all three do?? Would they call us and let us know? When we pulled in and parked our car, I suddenly remembered that I hadn't asked Jeff to give me a blessing!!! He blessed me right there in the car, with his hands in my head. It was wonderful. He blessed me that Heavenly Fathers will may be done. He blessed me that if there were more spirits in Heaven for our family then they would come to us. I felt at peace and at ease.
I was supposed to arrive with a full bladder, but we got there about 25 min. early so I decided to use the bathroom. I had been drinking lots of water on the way so I wasn't worried about being on empty. ;) I checked in and we quietly waited in the waiting room. I watched as other women or couples came in and were called back. I wondered about each of them and their stories... are they like me? What has their infertility journey been like? I hope they get a baby...baby dust, baby dust, baby dust to you all...
Jeff asked if I was prepared for this not to work. What? No! I'm not even going to think about that...it's going to work! Then I asked him, are you prepared for this TO work??!! :)
Then it was my turn.
I was brought into this cool, tiny little dimly lit room. I was told to undress from the waist down and right then I was overcome with emotions!! I started to cry and as soon as the assistant lady the room Jeff held me in his arms until I calmed down. The assistant peeked back in and asked if I'd like to take a Valium (calming, sedative). No thanks, I'm not worried about the plain, just nerves and anticipation. :)
I sat in a very upright table chair. The stirrups wide apart in front of me. Oh gosh! I thought. The things we do for our children!! After a few minutes, the embryologist peeked in, clothed in light blue scrubs and a mask. He asked me to verify my name and birthdate on a vile of pink liquid. "Yep, it's me, it's correct." Then he had Jeff verify it. He didn't say much, he nodded his head and off he went. Shortly after he left, my Doctor came in. She gave us each a cold-bony-fish hand shake. It was kind of uncomfortable... She handed us a small black folder with pictures of our 3 embryos inside. They had all survived the thaw! (Much to the Dr.'s surprise) it was our babies' first baby picture!
She then told us the quality of the embryos weren't the best for success. One looked very promising, and had even begun to "hatch out". it had better defined parts and a thinner lining. She gave it a 45% chance of progressing. The other two, (the two that were frozen together) were of lesser quality. They had a thicker shell and less defined. She gave these each only a 10% chance of survival. Then asked us if we still wanted to transfer them all. I figured why not and said yes, all. Jeff too. So we proceeded. They payed me back in the table and put in a little tube. They showed our embryos on a screen, and brought them in for the dr to place. With the tiniest puff of air these microscopic embryos were safe in my body! We could see a small shut spot in the ultrasound screen. There tgeyvere! All done!!
I felt like I had the most special gift inside me! I rested for a minute, then got up and dressed and outta there! I'm so grateful fur the amazing miracle they're able to perform! I can't believe we might have a baby!! I can't believe we might have 3 babies!! Although the chance is very slim. I stayed in bed rest the rest of the day and watched Fixer Upper. I love that show! I just have the best feeling about this! I'm optimistic and happy.
Today is day 2 of my tww. (Two Week Wait) I am feeling kind of bloated, very uncomfortable in pants, a bit hormonal, tired, sore bum from the intramuscular projesterone shots, and having a hard time taking it easy. I can't wait for the16th when I go in for my first blood draw and determination of pregnancy!! Please work! please work! please work!!
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